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My Label : RINNA I fell to SAMSARA on 25 Sep 93 FULL Attachments with BeverlyBenLim and Emperor of course, Many many FOODS!! Schooling in Republic Poly, Pharmaceutical Science :) I am simply CRAZY toward ICE CREAM!!!!! Follow me in twitter: twitter.com/#!/MeIsRinna Find me in fb: www.facebook.com/rinna.owyong Melodies
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Sunday, July 31, 2011
I found out. Some time, I just hope I can be alone and think through. I believe it's not the political issiue in the office. It just mentality differences, ego, just putting thing on what you want and shut off other exit. So how is there been kind? Making things so difficult and everyone has to bear it, the stress to remain on something so subtle. It's so small , insignificant and it's nothing. Nothing here mean hmm, i dunno how to explain. The only way out is Opening. Open up and accept. you can't pour in water if the vessel is full. you can only pour in when it's an empty vessel with no hole, the best. Everyone chose their way to express oneself. I do of course. Even though I may seem to be not present. I just hope I can do something because the group is IMPORTANT TO ME. A part of my learning. Leaving for the better? I am still finding out the answer.. After so long i wanted to be Normal. but now, Normal is not what I strive for. Normal to me is just accepting what it is, it is. Openness is very IMPORTANT. hmm.. I don't wish to stress the VERY there but to me, openness is the starting to everyhing. open to learn, open to ask, open to accept, open to do whatever and not get "hurt". Hope people could let go the ego and open. This post is not directed to anyone, not suppose to be offensive :) Saturday, July 30, 2011
Complication. making thing complicated is not being kind to yourself. Friday, July 29, 2011
Questions surrendering -----> Openness ( dependent ) but both are self deception right? Thursday, July 28, 2011
gain weight back i guess i need to take notice of my diet... Monday, July 25, 2011
Upcoming Monthniversary... I was looking at the date and guess what! Next Monday is my monthniversary with my boy! HEHEHE, I feel like making something for him... Hmm i always make card for him this time something more special?? No ideas yet. Still thinking hahaha. I love him alot! Even though I may be demanding, missy temper, not really understanding... hmm , hahaha but one thing he dislike about me : NOT STICKY enough... HAHHA, I will be Sticky soon haha! I LOVE MY BOY! <3 Everything fall into places. Was utterly disapponting when i really scolded myself yesterday... YUP, life wasn't great for me when I am rushing project deadline. NO MORE " FML" RINNA!!! hehehe. I wasn't mindful of my emotion.. got drifted away. Poor Boy got field camp on MON to THUR... Counldn't get through him.. I was wrong not to spare even a minute on the phone with him. Guess he was disappointed but he understand :) Just love the way he sms me and say : " after your work go oink oink bao bei" hehehe So sweet of him. and finally completed everything at 7am. Just hope i could talk to him cause I HAD THE TIME NOW. Everything Fall Back into places where they belonged but differently. Sound weird right. I don't know if i should be thankful. Somehow, i predict worse is coming. Saturday, July 23, 2011
I feeling very tired... really very tired... FEM is draining out my patience and energy.... Things left to do: 1) layouts 2) programs timeline 3) enhance the program Guess tonight is a long night for me again... Friday, July 22, 2011
Screwed up. I don't understand , it's was just screwed up... SERIOUSLY! So i am now being SCREWED up by FEM. TOtally! Accounting. This cartoon simply is ME... whenever i tried to do accounting, I GOT THE WHOLE THING WRONG. What is happening... I am like so not good in anything already... Brain become rusty in numeric... So finding what is wrong, MEANS DOING IT ALL OVER AGAIN. I need to study, really sit down and study, but tonight is the TEST ALREADY!!! Don't feel like skipping OPERA too > I should head down to shower now then go school study right... School had less distractions hehe Wait, I need someone to help me too... HAIX! WHAT TO DO *SCREAM* OH WELL~ I guess i just need to make a little more effort... yup yup! I NEED TO :) Gambatte to myself and everyone who taking accounting :) Thursday, July 21, 2011
Accounting lecture 6 was boring, 7 was killer, 8 was totally MY MURDERER. fixations I wonder why we had an ego mind that is so fixated in everything according to what we think so... But, Without this ego mind that is so fixated, How are you going to realise and recognise this ego mind with fixations? The anger within Tuesday, July 19, 2011
不是我不明白 你的努力我看到了， 我很感动， 真的。 你为我改变， 你为我做这么多， 我都知道。 我只是不善于表达。 不是我不明白。 我爱你  Restless. just feeling sleepy... I NEED SOMETHING THAT COULD DIGEST MY FULL STOMACH Sunday, July 17, 2011
how can i slim down luh?! I got the reason why i am getting fatter and fatter.... Due to my unstoppable craving on  I SCREAM! (ice cream) hello PANDA!!! Irrisitable LAYs SWISS CHEESE CHIPS! the addiction of fries  my distress snack... With all this , how am i going to slim down??? Saturday, July 16, 2011
stress.. Stress up with FEM project. Stress up with Intro to lei & recre interview Stress up with ACCOUNTING TEST! stress up lah! everything important dump next week.. Friday, July 15, 2011
lie I wonder what you are wondering. I wonder how unhappy you are. I really do wonder how long you will be keeping it from me. I don't want to continue living in your lies. please be kind to me, be honest won't you. Thursday, July 14, 2011
FEM Having festival and event management tutorial. Seriously, i think i learnt nothing. hmm... even though it's about event whice i once love, i find no passion on it... Seriously ranting and and ranting on. time wasn't going fast >.< Wednesday, July 13, 2011
lazy i am feeling lazy today. staring at blank spaces. doing nothing. Monday, July 11, 2011
DEMANDING. I find myself DEMANDING, or should I say, I am living with high expectation. Sitting down now and thinking of it, my life isn't easy going enough. I still have so much to expect for. So much for the one. I admit, at a certain point of time, i am attached to it and create such suffering for myself. Sometime watching myself , my emotion. I am a WEIRDO. Who really could understand "ME". " ME " is not stagnant. So the "me" now is not the "me" in the next second... SOUNDED CHIM RIGHT? I guess, using the analogy of the ice cream. Ice cream was bought to be in their solid form, but their solid form are facing changes every second, only by the time you had finished , you will only realise the the liquid state of the ice cream and know the ice cream melted. Who is mindful enough to keep looking at the ice cream melting at that present moment. if you do so, many will say you are crazy, but i applause you for that. Seriously. I admire your determination, patience and mindfulness. Been busy enough to do some contemplation. I wanted to give myself sometime, somehow a break. Watching people has become my hobby... Somehow, i develop an interest to read the minds of people. I want to know why I or they will think this way. Mind is a beautiful thing to study about right? Going into psychology may be the path for me. Hmm, think it twice. hehe. When I am stress, I blog. somehow it's give me a space to vent out all the ideas. May not be an inspiring blog but somehow, it's allows me to know my mind better. It's really funny if you try to reads each and every of your postings and found out how much you have grow in your mentality. So i am currently stuck in making a decision to go school tomorrow or not. I couldn't finish my work on my hand. It's piling up. Priority decision are coming. Black eyes ring many many for this two week. Seriously, i am stressing myself because I wanted perfection. Imperfection can be beautiful was deceiving. both perfection and imperfection is an delusion. Choice have to be make. Sometime, no matter how hard you do, many obstacles will bring you down. This quote are true. You will never "find" time for anything. If you want time, you must make it. Charles Bruxton ok to end off, enjoy the comic strip.. hehe  Saturday, July 9, 2011
indulgent i think all my hard-work wasted. I am back to my titbits again... ALL THANKS TO MY BOY. but i reduce carbo intake please let me slim down?! Friday, July 8, 2011
RUSH. Today was such a rushing time for me. haha so idecide to check out some cool cartoons .  This is the cartoon I liked best hehe. We will only stop rushing once we died hahaha.  This is like true right? everyone do find time not enough.  Children nowadays are lack of childhood memories... WHO PLAYS UNO NOW?  hahahaha!! this explain why Singapore had low birthrate right? haha! Thursday, July 7, 2011
GOD and BUDDHA. "promoter": Do you believe in the existence of GOD? ME: Hmm I don't think so. "promoter":Then why are you a Buddhist? Cause God don't exist in your mind? ME: Hmm, I think Buddha and God both have no true existence. "promoter":Then what do you believe in? What buddhist believe? ME: I believe in Changes. Ever changing. every single things is impermanent. every thing has no inherent existence. "promoter":You are a sinner to the world, go to god for the bread and water for eternal life? ME: Have you had eternal life? "promoter": No. But i want to go heaven. The god is willing to be the lamb to sacrifice to clear our sin. once we believe him, we will have eternal life in our soul. ME: So if I kill you then i beg for forgiveness i will go to heaven? "promoter": provided you repent and believe in god. Me: oO, so I guess every "promoter" of you are depending on GOD. God must be busy in clearing sins. Everyone have sin but dependent on god. So no one is really repenting. repenting is just a criteria to get the god to save you and allow you to go heaven?? "promoter" : No, it's God who want to sacrifice his life to clear of the sins of people. it's up to individual to believe him. Me: I do not believe in dependent toward god. I believe in sincere repent but the repentance will not totally clear off the karma (sins) unless you have remove the roots of the sin. Karma is a seed planted in everyone, it will grow, good or bad. It's cause, condition and effect. what had happen may have different cause to it, but at the right condition then the effect. "promoter" : *BLUR* I hope you will drop by our church tomorrow and join us. "ME" : I hope you will give me a call if you are interested to learn more about the 4 seals. the promoter are really good nowadays. SERIOUSLY. there are more convo to it but i lazy to type it out hehe. NOT WRITTEN TO INSULT OR OFFEND ANYONE. FEELING OFFENDED THEN WATCH UR EMOTION AND FEELING :) nothing to be offended on. Maturity. Everyone has their definition of Maturity. Some says when the child thinks in the perspective of an adult, she / he is mature. Some says adult are mature. Some defined the age of 21 as maturity age. Some says taking up responsibility is being matured. SO? What is MATURE? "NOTHING". "NOTHING' is mature. Never there is a stage of stagnation of maturity. maturity is a process. not only at one point of time. So if you ask me when? hmm, no beginning and no end. You can't find beginning with no end and no end without beginning, it "beginningless and endless". So when people say you are immature, then ask them, what is mature all about. Seriously, everyone is mature in each and different in their ways. stress or weak immunity? yup. Fever with flu and headache, nice one, lying at home the whole day doing work. NO mood. No twister fries. NOTHING. Only fruit juices and porridge. no mood at all. healthy diet yup yup recently I am having really healthy diet. I just found out how many fruits I had eaten for the day.
Stress changes ME. Monday, July 4, 2011
sian I SERIOUSLY very TIRED. I hate accounting and I am going no where with AM projecct. Sunday, July 3, 2011
Meaningful Fights. I had a cold war with my boy today. VERY COLD. Simply happened because in my opinion he is too unreasonable in somethings. however, in his context, I am merely naive and stupid. So I was waiting for an apology, but in the end, we apologize together. Explanation do help to clear matters up. I admit i am stupid at time and slow but i was hurt by his words. I realised something from his word towards me too. Perceptions difference. I was too much of "I", too indulged with myself being like this, with the fixation of who "I" was. This lead to my unhappiness when he says me. Of course, I am lack of patience. I need to be more mindful i guess. For him, he realised how blunt he was and he did not use the right word, he did apologise and he also agree to me that he was also fixated to what I should be; mature and all. yup, fight is a learning process of all couples, and often, it's a give and take, patience, trust, support and appreciation. The only way to stay fight free. There is no fixation. no fixation of what should it be, what is correct. Don't you agree with me? |
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