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Thursday, June 30, 2011
to my friend. May she be well and happy. May she be free from all emotion entanglements. May she understand impermanence and surpass everything that comes in her way. May she move on and be at the present moments always. May she be enlightened. Monday, June 27, 2011
project. Another sleepless three week for me.. Projects are non ending!! MY HOUSE GT DIRTY WOLF ( direct translation) Thursday, June 23, 2011
Something just struck me. Yup was thinking of what to Blog. Was at the bus trip to TP today , woah, long time didn't sit on the bus. Of course favourite routine : sit and do nothing. Easy said but difficult to do. REALLY. I NEVER DID ONCE realised PRESENT MOMENT. hmmm yup was thinking about something. LOVE is the word that struck me. How many people knows about what is LOVE. Many friends of mine was stuck in it. Even i admit i am blinded by it. but what it is? Some people say, Love is like a covalent bond, strong attractive forces but there are weak inter molecular forces in between. Somehow, i do see the analogy in term of attachment and suffering. How do I explain it. hmm. ok, the suffering or "happiness" comes when you are really really loving this person. but the PROCESS where by eg : the person don't love you back etc is the thing that made you suffer and unhappy. Attachment. Crave and desire enhance the process even more. But how do you not suffer ?? hmm either you realised impermanent and let it go hehe. i only got an answer for myself : "LOVE EVERYONE EQUALLY". Difficult but ya. Trying to educate my boy about this. Love can be selfish and can be self less, depend on your choice. I know some friends out there are having troubles in their relationship, i do have it too. I struggled to find a balance but sometimes, balance isn't the way to deal with things. couple have to be understanding and really be mindful about their priority. No wonder Love is Blind came about, but how about love at First sight? hmm. Having a confusing argument huh. Yup, I confess I really ignore my boyfriend feelings at times, but what is important is that he understand my priority in my life and what is important to me. Of course in return I had to be understanding to him too. We do really talk about some issues and we had argument. But everything is really all about Give and Take. Understanding and Mindfulness. Love is more than feeling , emotion and chemistry. I wouldn't say i am a good lover seriously. But what I can say is : the only balance you want to get from Love is Loving everyone equally. That the best balance to me i guess. love. Friday, June 17, 2011
Vertigo I wasn't sure y i got it, was talking to mummy and she said she had it relapse often.... could it be from my mum... I hope mine dun relapse ... especially MOTION SICKness.... Hate it.... hehehehe i was lucky to have it mild :) So got to shift house tomorrow and sunday :(( tired max... Ps : went out with beverly today :) but she was snatch away by her bf :(((!!! Truth is out. Doctor called to confirm that I am okay :) Caring huh... It was due to Vertigo... huh what is it???? Vertigo OverviewVertigo is the feeling that you or your environment is moving or spinning. It differs from dizziness in that vertigo describes an illusion of movement. When you feel as if you yourself are moving, it's called subjective vertigo, and the perception that your surroundings are moving is called objective vertigo. http://www.emedicinehealth.com/vertigo/article_em.htm Thursday, June 16, 2011
FML , INJECTION Went to watch X men in the morning with my boy... But something worse came. I vomited thrice and feeling dizzy and faint... Nearly black out... The feeling was scary, nv been suddenly sick. So i went home and things just got worse. Dizzy and Vomit :( I was tracing back on my food expediture and realised it's must have been the ICE MILK TEA. :(((((((( yup, went to the doctor immediately and she kept on talking and talk.. I was about to faint and she gave me a injection. It was on my RIGHT arm. !!! I always have it on my Left..... So right arm was sore and blue black... Pain comes. However, I feel lucky i had the injection. Feeling better :) yup . I hate injection and Doctors. I wonder what happen to the body. Feeling pain , sickness, was indeed suffering but, impermanent come in. So impermanent is a good thing in this case... ok wun post too long.. getting Dizzy again. Sick of being SICK. I hate injection :( Wednesday, June 15, 2011
missing my post? I had not been posting anything on my blog so missing my post? Anyway, alot of things had been happening thus i had no much time to post anything. Busy with school works, exams and other commitments. Yep, I admit that I am weak. Seriously. I just feel useless towards everything i do. sound pessimistic? I think I do. Recently, some flashback was coming back to me, affecting me a lot. Tried the eating method and it's fail. Didn't help me at all in forgetting. But meditation does seemed to work :) it's help me refresh and somehow, it's bring me some light just like the phrase " there's light at the end of the tunnel" .. oOps, Mr Edward comes back. So I decided to really do my part in helping the Sec 4 graduation and be committed. Why do i had this suddenly feelings.. Hmm, maybe Sherman and Matthew had Spur me on, seeing them make me feel that I had lost the self that i was back then. Somehow, I just want to find the responsible Me again. Youth is having Camp at UBIN!!! Sounds exciting, but there is nothing i can help with. Feeling left out maybe. Moreover, I had phobia in sitting boats and ship. Thanks to titanic! I was joking. I do have fear for weird things. I am weird myself. So with that, I guess I will not go for it... unless there are other means of transportation...however i really want to show some commitment and support, I dunno what I can do so I would just watch. Watch and learn. :) I could not find anyone of the same frequency to talk to, even my boyfriend. Not the feeling of Lonely, I had people to talk to everyday, But it's the feeling of emptiness in my life. There are some time that i wish i can be alone and talk to myself. I wants to find some answers to it. Because of this, i think i am being selfish toward my boyfriend. Sometimes instead of telling him, i just feel keeping quiet is better. I accept the differences within our frequency of "ideas". I know he will do anything for me and keep me occupied , but i guess i need time to be alone and this is the best thing he could give me since he in his camp:) look like it's gonna be a long post... I missed the time where I can help people. Every single moment where i can help, i will. Especially on the Streets. I feel Joy in helping. But there are always certain things that would comes to me. Some sights had made me feeling depress over. I do realise how fragile life could be. things come and go, similarly, I comes and go too. It's a normal phenomenal but I couldn't accept it even now. yup the most painful suffering is not being able to comprehend and realise impermanent. We are so indulge in our extreme luxury or extreme suffering, who will actually realise the middle path and attain ultimate happiness? Some will say the Buddha, which was correct but, do anyone know, All humans Can realise ultimate happiness too? difficult and hard. But more importantly was the determination and you want to before letting go of anything. I am nagging lika AH MAh. |
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